Month: September 2018

Baiser – 狂人日記 (Kyoujin Nikki)

Diary of a Madman

“Repeating many times, many times,
I dream that you smile without knowing the end, in the flow of time.
Was I left alone? Was I brought to my end alone?
I don’t understand even that.
I’ll meet you who waited like this, bloodstained you…”

In an uninhabited room, a room without even you
I dream I was locked up all alone… I dream…

I won’t go back anymore, to the neverending moments…

“Time that I can’t break smiles at me.
Is this a dream? In my hallucinations
The meaningless emotion called love made blood rush to my head.
You, you aren’t here with me.”

Where is an uninhabited place, a place without even you…
In a dream where I’m locked up all alone… time…

I won’t go back anymore, to the neverending moments…
Repeating many times, am I going crazy?

Am I strange? Broken room
Who is strange? Maddened time*
Are you strange? Neverending dream
What is strange? Time repeating itself
Am I strange? Broken room
Everything is strange? Maddened time*

“In my end, you were brought to an end.
You who decomposed were scattered before.
You, nothing but bones. Me, the strange one.”

~

Notes:

*The “maddened time” lines were written 繰り返す時間 (time repeating itself) but sung 狂った時.

The phrases in quotes and italics are spoken parts that weren’t printed in the CD booklet.

Baiser – Rebirth

Rebirth

It’s not an eternal parting but a momentary parting
I’ll sleep until the time we meet again someday…

Lala… so I’ll be reborn…
Lala… within the flow of time…
Lala… if I could be reborn…
Lala… so I can see you again…

Lala… so I’ll be reborn…
Lala… within the flow of time…
Lala… if I could be reborn…
Lala… so I can see you again…

We can’t be separated… the red string…
Like the colour of our blood…
We can’t be separated… the red string…
Like the colour of my blood…

We can’t be separated… the red string…
Like the colour of our blood…
We can’t be separated… the red string…
Like the colour of my blood…

Baiser – Fetus

Fetus

In the dark water where memories of reaching your dreams will disappear
I stay asleep, within the tranquility where I don’t even know the name I’m to be called

A tiny beat dwelling inside you, playing with sounds that know no end
I stay asleep, within the tranquility where I don’t even know the name I’m to be called

Dozing with a dream of embracing my mother, to whom will I be born?
Dozing as I dream of embracing my mother, how will I be born?

Dozing with a dream of embracing my mother, I’ll be born…

Baiser – Promise

Promise

I thought it wouldn’t be permitted
This body I’d have given to you

Passing close, I can’t see it, within your chest
I can’t even see you, I can’t see the truth

Without counting the things that I lost
I thought back to the past

Passing close, I can’t see it, within your chest
I can’t even see you, the truth…

A secret promise with you who were breaking
I can’t go back, can’t get it back, time won’t stop

In the flowing time I searched for, my collapsing thoughts
I lost my dreams…

It doesn’t matter where I go
To get to the place where you wait for me

Passing close, I can’t see it, within your chest
I can’t even see you, the truth…

A secret promise with you who were breaking
I can’t go back, can’t get it back, our promise

Baiser – Slay

Slay

In a mangled nightmare…
Gears that started to break…

The husk of you who were empty…
In a dream that repeats no matter how often I saw it…

In a mangled nightmare…
Gears that started to break…

The husk of you who were empty…
In a dream that repeats no matter how often I saw it…

SLAY starting to flow
SLAY what colour did I see in the blood
SLAY in my hands that become husks…

SLAY starting to protrude
SLAY **** pulses
SLAY in my head I started to go mad from losing fingers…

SLAY starting to flow
SLAY what colour did I see in the blood
SLAY in my hands that become husks…

SLAY starting to protrude
SLAY **** pulses
In my hands… in my head

Baiser – Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis

I call your name… I heard only your breath…
Smoke fade away to dark inside… Metamorphose…
Our bodies melt into one… Please wait a little longer…
You decay death ecstacy…
In the dark… Metamorphose…

My thawing body, to the depths of a renewed desire…
Two of us… can change… into one…
My thawing heart, along with senses I can lose… changes

You and I who were changed, we assimilated
Me and you who were changed, we evolved

My thawing body, to the depths of a renewed desire…
Two of us… can change… into one…
My thawing heart, along with senses I can lose… changes

You and I who were changed, we assimilated
Me and you who were changed, we evolved

I call your name… I heard only your breath…
Smoke fade away to dark inside… Metamorphose…

You and I who were changed, we assimilated
Me and you who were changed, we evolved

Baiser – Answer

Answer

Your body that became cold, my thoughts that were left behind
Sleeping me embraced by you who became cold… I’ll go after you…

You made no answer
I wish your return to myself
I call…… I call…… But…… Cry……

You made no answer
I wish your return to myself
I call…… I call…… But…… Cry……

With my call that won’t return…
I chase you who won’t come home…

With my call that won’t return…
I chase you who won’t come home…
I’ll go at once……

Baiser – Dye

I’m going crazy from the sorrow of having lost you
The love… and hatred… of you who aren’t mine
So much that I want to kill… you…
So much that I… go mad…
You… became cold…
In the end I held you close…
In that time we entangle together…

I’m going crazy from the reality I pursue
In the gears that started to go mad… I keep writhing in madness…
I’ll kill… you…
I’ll… go mad…
You… became cold…
In the end I held you close…
Beneath the madly blooming flowers…*

My sins… a dream I can’t wake from…
Your sins… I’ll dye them…

DEEP DYED

I’m going crazy from the sorrow of having lost you
The love… and joy… of you who will be mine
You… died…
I’m… going crazy…
You… became cold…
In the end I held you close…
In the moment you freeze…

My sins… wounds that can’t heal…
Your sins… cannot be forgiven…

My sins… a dream I can’t wake from…
Your sins… I’ll go mad…

My sins… a moment of warmth that can’t be broken…
Your sins… cannot be forgiven…

~

Notes:
*狂い咲く花 which I translated as “madly blooming flowers” can also be translated as “flowers blooming out of season”

Art Cube – False Prayer

False False prayer
Desecrated wishes, delusions gone mad
False False prayer
False prayer that borrowed love’s name
False False prayer
Entwining hands are a lie’s escape
False False prayer
You tumbled when I was clinging to you

At twilight, comforted and disordered breaths
If only crowds of hateful demons dance around
Just getting worn out would be clumsy control
A silent melody, I pray while I confess*
At twilight, sad and broken breaths
If only crowds of inspired demons suck it all in

False False prayer
A destroyed imagination can’t remember
False False prayer
False prayer that left a girl behind
False False prayer
As if the nightmare’s escape goes unnoticed
False False prayer
Foolishly sinking, you tumble

Captured alive, interrupted breaths that saw a dream
I’ll bury the light I captured and be intoxicated by the night
Just disappearing would be clumsy spite
An unseen melody, I pray while I confess
Captured alive, decayed and noisy breaths
If only crowds of mysterious demons mix around

miserables desire for rule
pray the soundless melody with your confession
miserables hatred world
play the blind melody with your confession
mad delusion
destruction
nightmare’s escape

At twilight, comforted and disordered breaths
If only crowds of hateful demons dance around
At twilight, sad and broken breaths
If only crowds of inspired demons suck it all in
Captured alive, interrupted breaths that saw a dream
I’ll bury the light I captured and be intoxicated by the night
Captured alive, decayed and noisy breaths
If only crowds of mysterious demons mix around

~

Notes:

*Translated 殲悔 as “confess” based on the English stanza. It’s not actually a word, the individual kanji are massacre + regret”.