Month: March 2018

Antikythera – Ensei no endroll

End credits of Pessimism

A calm plaza on a holiday afternoon
Balloons floating up to the sinking evening sun
How long has it been like this here?
Children dancing and dancing with a lively song

When I notice, everyone’s hands and feet are worn out
Accompanied by voices thinking of home

Closing my eyes, goodnight, I’ll sleep a little
The difficult book will be thrown away tomorrow
Sand castles crumble if you walk through them
I’ll reach out to catch it, with a bitter laugh

The bottom where I arrived is a deposit of memories

A calm plaza on a holiday afternoon
Scenes floating up to the sinking evening sun
Though I hold on to a vestige, this may be the end here
The children are still dancing, to the distant sound of a flute

The warning can bind everyone’s hands and feet
I’ll light a fire and be struck by gazing

Closing my eyes, goodnight, I want to sleep more
Trivial stubbornness is already abandoned on the ground
The sand castles crumbled when I walked through them
Even my unfussy heart still has strength

The intentions of people who are perpetually connected
Can easily crumble sand castles

That place where I arrived is like a paradise

Antikythera – DDP(Dear Doctor Pepper)

Instead of mirrors, everyone
Must place a door at their mouth
Relatively crowded after the roses scatter

Even if I’m said to be insensible
Understanding such things is already arranged
You waited until I took my turn didn’t you…? I can’t say anything

Even I, a Godly fellow, may gulp it down
Comprehension and disgrace are warped, goodnight Honey

Come on, let’s be in such a mood, like a deep crimson can
As though I had a kink in my neck
I’ll pretend to read a difficult book

In 20 small blank spaces
Maybe just hoping is futile
When I could think, white or black…?

Maybe I’ll swallow down those in the terminal screen too
Flying over time and habits, goodnight Honey

Come on, let’s be in such a mood, like a deep crimson can
As though I had a kink in my neck
I’ll read a difficult book

What kind of self will I be today? Like a secret can
As though I had a kink in my neck
I’ll pretend to read a difficult book

androp – Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!

A story bursts open
Every day
Like ideals, there are also times when I can’t go

But a melody bursts open
I’ll make today important
I often walk but there are times I hesitate too

Hey, hey, hey
Don’t stop!
Hey, hey, hey
On the other side
Hey, hey, hey
I can see light!

You’re advancing straight ahead
The direction you’re facing is before you
Even if you stand still it’s okay
With a long jump you can fly higher, higher

A heart bursts open
I believe it’s love
Only a lie, but there are times I want to cry too

Hey, hey, hey
Don’t give up!
Hey, hey, hey
On the other side
Hey, hey, hey
I can see light!

You’re advancing straight ahead
What’s in the direction you’re going?
Even if you get lost often it’s okay
That will become your own map

Our time isn’t pointless!
With one step from standing still
We can try to change the future just a little!
Look!

Advancing straight ahead
The direction you’re facing is before you
Even if you stand still it’s okay
With a long jump you can fly even higher

Advancing straight ahead
Only your reserve awaits
I expect there to be many choices
The answer will always be your today

androp – Tonbi

Black Kite

A former time when I laughed and cried
I’ve endured feelings of the past and present for some time
Still the hydrangeas bloom prettily
Recalling, recalling, I’ll draw them

The distant, deep sky and the land
Words that flowed from the sound of Kama Sutra
Still disappear and fall along with the rain
I kept thinking and thinking about them

Part of my heart dreams of and breaks fleeting delusions
The wrong emotions, but at the end of it I’m alone
I did it over again
Faster than slicing the wind

Above the stalling clouds
Overflowing, overflowing, overflowing
But only if I had hands now I could try to touch you

The horizon of darkness and light
The threshold of loveliness and heartache

Crying is a step to being depressed
Am I living with my faults in a vanished forest?
“Sorrow” and “Emptiness”
I cried and screeched

Far away, the evening I vowed
The trap I happened upon, the tears you spilled
Still cool me down splendidly
I kept asking and asking about it

We passed by and exchanged our hearts
The wrong emotions, but at the end of it there’s just one
I did it over again
Faster than seeing my destiny

You aren’t here
At my side, at my side, at my side
If only I could touch you, try holding you

Always

The speedy blue
Eternally, eternally, eternally
Though I search for all of you now, you aren’t there
Even my smile is changing, washed away by time
Because if I look back now I’m already crying

However, if you look up at the sky when a Black Kite screeched
Surely it’ll be searching for you somewhere
In your sleep

 

~

Notes:

The black kite is a bird, not a child’s toy.

androp – Star

You aren’t alone, I’m always at your side
The tears that flowed are still brimming over, but

It’s okay, it’s okay, because soon you can smile again
Hey, we’ll meet tomorrow together

I’ll be there, I’ll be at your side
If you are here, I’ll reach out my hand
Together forever
A light shone from the darkness
The glimmer I see is a Star

Even if the flowing time breaks your heart
Even if your dreams fall to the depths of your sorrow

It’s okay, it’s okay, we can get through it together
Tied together, tied together, because I’ll sing

Wherever we are, even if we’re apart
You’re here, that much gives me meaning
It won’t ever change
Even if I’m hurting I’ll try to love
This world with you in it

I want to be me who doesn’t belong to anyone else
I promise to my hearts’ content
Before it disappears
Hey…

I’ll be there, I’ll be at your side
If you find yourself lacking, if you compare yourself to others
Just be as you are
I’m here, smile for me
You’re a glimmering light, a Star

androp – Songs

If I hum my thoughts I don’t expect will reach you one by one
I’ll show you the sky is different in the world you should be used to

I remember your voice, your smiling face
The nights we cried together too

Though you’ll lose the “truth” in so many voices
It seems even your smiling face from that time disappears with anguish

Today it ends, everything ends
I want you to laugh this time tomorrow
Does my voice reach you? Because I’ll go meet you
Because you aren’t alone

Reach, reach, always, always
I want to be at your side
Wherever you are, I’ll scream so you can hear me
Carried on my songs

So many nameless memories and pale dreams
A heart that was hurt repeatedly still remembers

We’ll be connected, now, we’re connected
I’ll light the lights without change
Because I’ll illuminate you, because we can go anywhere
Because we can cross over

Sing, sing, always, always
I want you to share the piling up sorrows and violent loneliness with me
We’ll go together

It reached you, it reached you, surely, yes surely
With you at my side, I laugh like I can go anywhere

Reach, reach, always, always
I want to be at your side, so you can always laugh
Carried on my songs

My thoughts that reach you one by one dance in the sky

androp – Run

Glittering, glittering, I can see the lights
I breathe deeply, deeply

Trembling, trembling, I dream
I think of you facing, facing me

Tick-tock, tick-tock, time moves
I bear hope and anxiety on my back

Gushing, gushing, in front of the door
I made all preparations to start running

Everyday, Everyone
HEY! HEY! WOW! WOW!

Everyday, Everyone
HEY! HEY! WOW! WOW!

Run! Run!
With a battle cry
Run! Run!
Changing now
I’ll sing this song straining my voice
I can go anywhere!

Tick-tock, tick-tock, time advances
Exchanging the tips of loneliness and hesitation

Opening, opening, passing through
I’ll run past the boundary, to victory or defeat

Everyday, Everyone
HEY! HEY! WOW! WOW!

Everyday, Everyone
HEY! HEY! WOW! WOW!

Run! Run!
Don’t decide the limits
Run! Run!
Crossing now
I’ll sing even with spilled tears
Only you can go

Along with my footprints if I stop
The wind that wipes my tears was blowing
If I look up I can see light in the sky

If we sing the song together
It seems we can walk again to the scenery we wished for
The end is always a beginning
Come, let’s begin

Come, let’s begin

Run! Run!
With your voice
Run! Run!
Changing now
I’ll sing this song straining my voice
I can go anywhere!

Run! Run! Run! Cut through the wind!
Come! Come! Run! Run out!
I can go anywhere with you

The future emitting light, light
Now the world connects, connects, connects
Now seizing, seizing, seizing a dream
I can go anywhere!

androp – Paranoid

If you die
I won’t let you go anywhere
Let me sit at your side always
Though we wanted to play like children
Hey

Surely if you knew
You’d go somewhere
Please don’t ever let it be known
I want to live with the ideals you desire

But you spew such lies, and remove your shoes
Dancing until the morning, Lady
Smirking, you don’t know
How long will you sing, Lady
Embracing, removing your clothes
To the depths I desire you, Lady
Oh Lady
Try to illuminate the lurking shadows

“The most,” you spit out, if it’s pain end it already
We always dreamed to our limits
There’s no way out anymore from the values of the statement
Our freedom parted with today’s reality

Because I’ll disappear someday
Don’t you want to know everything?
I’ll show you only me, standing still
Wrapped in chains, will we talk of love?

Anyhow, even if you know
I won’t let you go anywhere
But if you’d rather end it somewhere
Bring me and we can be together

Why do you lie, kneeling
Bluffing until the morning, Lady
Biting and wounding me
How long will you guard me, Lady
Feeling giddy until the end
My heart is fired up, Lady
Oh Lady
Try to break the mad world

“Delusion,” you spit out, if you wish end it already
We dreamed with a single musical scale
If this is “the end” for a necessary future, no more
It was myself who decided that light is hope

“The most,” you spit out, if it’s pain end it already
We always dreamed to our limits
Reaching out to the truth, I won’t sigh anymore
We’re going against reason with today and reality

androp – Neko

Cat

Today too I hold my tail up as usual
Patrolling the forever unchanging scenery
Without question, the end is that place
Upon a warm lap

Though I always tried to ask why you cry
You don’t understand my words
I meowed because it’s no use
We cried together
Until your cheeks dry

“Because I’ll grow up to wipe the overflowing droplets”
I vowed, looking up at the square sky
Now I lead you on an adventure as your tears finish

A cat starts singing
A cat dreams
So we don’t separate
So we don’t part
Nya nya nya nya nya
Together always

Outside the square window
Multicoloured flowers of red, white, yellow, and green
It’s fun, we laughed together
My throat rumbles, purr, purr

Though the darkness comes before you know it, I’ll lead you
Our spotlight is the light of the moon
Now my silhouette shines on a dark night
A parade with stars

A cat starts to dance
A cat whirls in the sky
So it’ll never end
So it’ll never end
So we can laugh together

You came
And gave me the warmth of this world

“One, two, three~”
“One, two~”

A cat starts singing
A cat dreams
So we don’t separate
So we don’t part
Nya nya nya nya nya

I start singing
I dream
So I won’t forget
So I won’t forget
Your warmth

If I’m with you
I’m happy anywhere in this world

androp – Letter

It was you I recalled
It was the scent of us being together I remembered
The sky that day was also a blue sky like this
Are you looking up at the same sky too?

Though I can’t touch you today
I have a feeling I can write if it’s a letter
Separated as we are, time passes
I can write this surely because we’ve been separated

Dear
I can’t forget about you.
Now, your face naturally comes to mind
And however many seasons after
I want to convey my feelings to you now
That I’ve written and delivered such a letter
You’ll surely be surprised
But, as if our years aren’t piling up
You move me like this.

Swaying, swaying, my thoughts
I’ll release them into the clear blue sky
Hand in hand each of them resound
Do the thoughts sway your heart?
The words I started to say that time
Words swaying within me

‘This is fate’ I think
‘This is my everything’ I think
So the end will become a beginning
I want to know more and more about you

Though I can’t send mail with impact
I have a feeling I can write if it’s a letter
Unable to talk as we are, time passes
I can write this surely because we can’t talk

Dear
You’re important to me.
Now, your face that you had no faith in comes to mind
And however many promises after
I’ll protect you now and always.
That I’ve written and delivered such a letter
You’ll surely be surprised
But, always just as when we met,
You move me like this.

Swaying, swaying, my thoughts
Alone, you laugh at the sky
Doesn’t matter if it’s an illusion
Let me dream once more
A dream I won’t ever wake from
Even to touch you with my reaching hands

Swaying, swaying, my thoughts
I’ll release them into the clear blue sky
Hand in hand each of them resound
Do the thoughts sway your heart?
The words I started to say that time
Words swaying within me